Two steps back.

Early may was strong generally for me, but the last few weeks brought a few significant setbacks. Living with a chronic illness, whether it's lyme, MCAS, gut dysfunction, mental illness, means you cannot 100% count on feeling really functional every day. And this really stinks.

You cannot count on your energy levels. You are easily thrown off kilter - stress, poor sleep, negative emotions, poor diet, being busy - which can mean loosing functionality because symptoms spike, or you just do not feel well. You have to cancel plans or you just push through. You are not thriving, just surviving. This is how it can be alot withchronic illness. It's a rollar coaster and it's very frustrating. For me, I had a few very stressfulweeks at work that threw me off energically, and then I caught an upper respiratory virus and was out for the count for about a week. A then a few weeks of fatique follow that. If my husband gets sick, or a person with a normal immune system, they don't get sick very often, they can push through when they do and they recover very very quickly. For me, I go down, I recover very slowly. I slip back. My energy drops, my digestion get wonky, I stay very congested. So it has been a few weeks of wellness triage for me trying to get myself back up to baseline. This means some energy clearing work, a few vitamin C IV's, more detoxing and increased vitamin supplmentation. This is all time and money. All the while working, managing the household, my kids schedules, life demands. I know it could be worse and there are worse things, but for people with chronic illness this scenario I just laid out is very common and it happens alot. And it's exhausting and frustrating.

Sorry for a less then cheery post. Just being real. Here's to a sunny, happy June!